day without her - 10
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
4/22/2008 07:25:00 PM
It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight
day without you - 4
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
4/16/2008 06:29:00 PM
last night was terrible
i was running a very high fever at 4am
then i did not want to disturb anyone at home, so i just have to endure it
my head felt like exploding, my body ache like mad.
my throat remained the same, it burn like crazy
until now i feeling so sick, but the more i stay at home, the more sick i feel
at least now my fever is gone
but then my head is throbbing like mad
should i go clubbing later? =/
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i'm bored..
Day without you - 3
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
4/15/2008 08:52:00 AM
just came back from my poly class chalet
and just got some catching up with them before the start of school
my main intention was to get there and get really drunk
but it turn out that i was the one that taking care of the drunk
slowly one by one seeing each other them getting drunk faster then me
it really feels so ...... , i cant describe this feeling
in the end, i just had to inhale more 'air'
which eventually made my throat really sore now
i think i'm going to get throa
t infection sooner or later.
but seeing one of them drunk, feeling so sad about some problems
it really hurts me to see that
yeah, i'm perfectly fine being seen around anyone
but once it comes when i had to face four walls alone
the feeling is unbearable
and i still don't understand why such a thing must be done
maybe that is why you say our opinions differ
but seriously, the way you think really is different and unique.
it really left me lost and in agony...
i got a reallybad sore throat, burning
just woke up, probably the worst i always feel
i really hate sleeping, because i just cant run away from all this
i still had to accept reality which i really can't do it.
i think you are gotten used to me not in your life anymore
i guess i'm quite the forgotten right now
all i did was did my best for the relationship
and now you tell me you could not commit
i did not ask for 100% full attention from you
what you did at easter vigil was really good enough for me
was it really that you are tired of having problems
or tired of this relationship?
because whatever you said to me doesn't make sense
you treat me like what?
someone as and when you can start loving as you please
and as and when you really cannot handle it, you just dump
you are not being good for not dragging this
don't think that it actually helped me
i already took a ultimate long time having to forget my first one
all your promises, were they stimulating me to kill myself
aren't you happy that i'm like that for you
instead of filling guilty, i just you are enjoying yourself
i'm very tired, very tired of getting this treatmenti.
i'm very tired of those promise you actually made
remember you told me once that my promises actually meant alot to you?
you think is not vice versa?
tired tired tired
Day without you - 1
Sunday, April 13, 2008
4/13/2008 11:43:00 PM
it has been 5months since we were together
today i finally decided to let go of everything
even though that it really really hurts me by doing so
plus the fact that i'm really really confused
my heart is like bleeding profusely.
anyway, went to church as per normal
it was the youth mass so the 1230 choir did not have to sing
despite every single month of singing the same old songs, they keep making mistakes
the youth choir, really CMI
after the mass, the family with melvyn, sheryl and suat went for lunch
wanted to go Oasis to eat, but they have already close down
so we eventually went to toa payoh to eat at fortunATE restaurant
eat DIM SUM! =P
after that came back and played mahjong with adrian,melvyn and mummy in the evening
but probably wasn't in the mood to play
at least i manage to break even.
i accompanied adrian and melvyn to take a cab
after a few minutes of talking with them, i eventually broke down
or ya, i probably will be taking a break from the choir
quite tired of being there already
so am i really over this thing?
i guess... definitely not..
Liverpool 3 - 1 Blackburn :)))
The drive of Life, i dont see one for me though.
Monday, April 7, 2008
4/07/2008 08:01:00 PM
