sigh sigh sigh..
Sunday, October 28, 2007
10/28/2007 03:28:00 AM
yeah yeah, whatever you say
no point for us to argue over it
it is really dumb, cause whatever is the case, we both have our reasons to believe
so either there is no way that either one of us can accept it
im just sad that it turn out this way
i cant help it if you wanna think of it this way
so it just ends here, blogging to argue over this is really dumb
bye~ hope you have a better life without me around
and im sure you will have
i really wondered
Friday, October 26, 2007
10/26/2007 01:43:00 AM
to a person that was once even my friend
yeah, just saw you working today when i was catching a movie with sheryl and victoria
somehow or what, i just did not want to face you, yeah
and the reason is not that i am guilty for whatever that happened
but the fact that i'm extremely disappointed on how much you have changed
perhaps, you just did not want to be around with both my bro and i
you were not happy, if so then why did you continue until now?
start complaining and swearing over it
yes, you took leave of from your work specially just to meet us to go out
yes, you came down immediately when we felt down
yes, we went through alot of shit together this year
and what? you wanted some appreciation from us?
this is becoming the joke of the century
as for that day when you took leave to go out with us
i really had work on that day, you can go ask both my friends that are also working there
but in the end i did not go because i overslept, and after that i really had a class bbq
but then all of my friends decided not to go cause not many wasn't going
and it was such a last minute decision
and you said i laugh about it for not telling you about that?
and that we were not there for you when you're feeling down?
you yourself did not tell us that you are not feeling right
you just tell us that, "oh you all want to go out?"
i don't remember something regarding that you are feeling down
and i told you, you could just ask my brother out even if i am not free
but fuck it, your ego is just too big to ask him
its not me that always so indecisive on going out
its him, and please just don't group both of us together cause that happen to you
cause that really piss me off, piss me off for something that i did not do
oh ya, and appreciation? you want some appreciation for what you do?
how old are you? u think this is some primary school work that after you finished it, your teacher will come by and say: "very good job! i really APPRECIATE what you done for me."
if you really expect appreciation for everything that you have done,
please just go own a dog, at least when you give it food, it will listen to you
or mayb you be some super hero of what, then start saving people
ya, then mayb the whole world will show appreciation to you
if that what you want SO FUCKING MUCH
and then if you are not those types that can take jokes
such as teasing you to drink booze when you're fasting
or complaining about some other things, then just say so
stop giving me that false face of yours and start to complain elsewhere
ya ya, you're not the person that we knew anymore
oh just have to tell you something if you forget
too many things happen to me in this year
i've been through the rough patch equally as bad as you
or mayb worse off then you
i'm much more not the person that i was once used to be
so don't fucking give me your petty attitude over things
seriously, the more i think about it, your complains sounded like you are my girlfriend
i don't have this kind of stupid things from my other guy friends
oh my fucking gosh!
i din't really want to write this post, it seriously childish and stupid to complain over such a thing
so it is up to you to think
i don't give a damn
having you as a friend or not doesn't really make a difference in my life
i seriously think you just need a girl in your life
give you all the love and time you need
so mayb you would not complain about the slightest thing ever
yeah, i've been too tolerant already
so you can just f*** off from my life
and i think after this decision, im finally seeing a change in my life
change of a better life
without my so called "girlfriend"
start of school!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
10/21/2007 11:14:00 PM
yeah, school will start tomorrow
so it means the start of more projects and work to pass up
and the first day back, its going to be until 6pm, how nice
feeling so so tired today after a really crazy drinking spree for the last two days
not enough of sleep, and the lack of enjoyment from this holiday
thats making me feel so fed up that school is starting again
however, other then that, i really wanted school to start
it beats working my ass off on a stupid full-shift schedule
im slowly getting back my life back after stopping work
going to plan all the movie outings
all the partying and all the shopping that really needed
i must prove to myself that without having a partner, it will also be as meaningful
whats the use of having a relationship
when most of the time you find yourself quarrelling with the other party
its either one party that have to always give in to the other
or else no matter what, the relationship will not work out
but giving in doesn't mean that you have to change yourself
or else that won't be the real you that is in it
its better to close one eye over then to be over sensitive over some things
saving one's face in a relationship will only lead to petty quarrels that really unnecessary
to really love a person, it really means that the person is even more important to you
then to yourself
you don't mind letting him/her go, just to know that he/she is happier that way
even to the expense of seeing that person in another relationship
cause when you see the smile on that person's face, you would feel that everything that you've done is really worthwhile..
so much for all the noble words, it is certainly easier said then done
how many people in this world can actually do this and really feel so happy about it
yeah, i failed badly in trying to do this
although i felt quite happy in doing so
i still feel the hurt and regret in doing this
but i prefer to just endure, this is what really makes my life feels much more meaningful
falling sick again
Saturday, October 20, 2007
10/20/2007 05:25:00 AM
finally a proper day out without having going to work
firstly, had some crap pre-semester briefing in school
was like finally back in school after like around 2months?
anyway, was suppose to have some kbox thing with my poly friends
ended up the plan did not really work out so well
i did not follow them to orchard to shop, noooo!
instead, i met up with travun and went to play pool with him
his luck is still there, cant help it =P
after that went to say kok house to have our 2e1 class bbq
i stayed there for only 15mins before having to rush back home for choir practice
yes, additional training is really needed for this batch of teenagers
being with them really make me feel so old, i can't stand it
after practice, we went to bedok to have something to eat
more like my dinner which i haven't eat yet
then, i went back to say kok house and the 2e1 guys had a game of truth or dare
i guess my luck is really that good, cause i did not even get forfeit once!
came back home at around 4.30am feeling so terrible
i think im going to fall sick sooner of later
can just feel it coming (sounds wrong =P)
i really need to get some sleep, still have to work one more time before school starts
for only 3hours, but is at 12pm.. sianzzZZ
good nights everyone! sweeeeet dreams~
back to normal life
Friday, October 19, 2007
10/19/2007 04:11:00 AM
yes, i guess this is the end of my busy schedules of work
my school gonna start next week, and there is a briefing in school tomorrow
i got into psychology i guess
if i'm not wrong, like that daphnie is able to help me with it! (:
anyway, i will still continue my work,
however like during the weekends or weekdays that i am free.
yes yes, finally i will be having a packed weekend
hope it turn out well yeah.
and i guess i will be officially rejoining back the choir
however, my voice really cannot make it
anyway, my stupid wound at my leg still hurts
damn it, why does it take so long to heal, irritating
a day of rest
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
10/17/2007 03:43:00 AM
din't went to work today
was supposed to though
but stayed at home to rest, cause my whole body is like aching
so the whole day was spent sleeping
after that, went for choir practice at night
it has been like so so long since i went for choir practice
anyway, it is going to be christmas soon, and also i enjoy singing
so like yup, i'm back
and school gonna start, yeah yeah
i am going to get back my normal life, haha
at least with more money to spend xD hehe
i guess two more days of work before it is going to start
so i am so gonna enjoy it. (:
tiring though, but i really felt that my time spent was worthwhile
33 onigashimas!
im back!
Monday, October 15, 2007
10/15/2007 01:23:00 AM
haha, finally manage to settle the problem with my stupid blog
and that problem is really dumb, dont wanna mention it :P
anyway, all this while its all working
and really tedious tedious working
working the full shift for around one week plus, now really know the stress in working
since starting out this year, i've really changed
i'm not the philip that you used to see, always happy go lucky and all
i guess this change will be for the better
certainly studying is much better then working
fortunately, my colleagues are very nice people, easy to get along
except maybe for one =x
yea i have been working so much, i think i have overworked
yeah, breaking the ocha cups there
not only need to pay money, but also the broken pieces cut my leg
so so deep, haha damn suay..
now i really wish to find a aim, or something that i wanna do
or else life is beginning to become meaningless
ARGH! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT! [T.T]
eh sheryl tong, not fair la. like that also can get your psp
don't get addicted to medal of honors =P
congratulations
Friday, October 5, 2007
10/05/2007 03:47:00 AM
for those who manage to see this post
congratulations! =x
after one night of making a new blogskin, it turns out that the page cannot be seen using internet explorer
really ohmygosh, now i have to redo one more whole blogskin again
but that will take quite long i guess
really feeling so tired after doing this one
was quite satisfied with this blogskin, actually very satisfied
but then.. haiz
just came back from my class chalet
dont really know whether to say it fun or not
but certainly this chalet is very unhealthy
having junk or fast food for every meal
and drinking through the night
and obviously not sleeping
i am getting old
sick and tired of everything
:(
