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months

August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
November 2008
December 2008

i guess i lost my life
i started to learn how to talk to myself
that is how sad my life is
i needed to talk to someone so badly
till i talked non-stop when fetching my brother to the bus-stop early in the morning
dinner at 3am, i am retarded
my new best friend?
me

nothing much to say for this few days
everything as been the same
sleeping at around 8am, waking up at 3.30pm
start work at 6pm and reaching home by 12am
then have my own free time till 8am
and the routine continues...
so practically everything is the same
quite boring, however i must get used to it
i guess i will be changing to afternoon shift soon
even though night shift may have a few more hours to work
but the closing time is really a nuisance
clearing up the mess; washing the bottles and cups
or even stocktaking, that is like so boring

but something was different this early morning
liverpool began to win again, guess because i watched them played ^^
against Reading in the carling cup
Liverpool 4-2 Reading
torres got his first hat-trick for Liverpool
they have been drawing in all the premier league matches
because benitez did not start with him
zzZZZ

i'm going to prepare for work now
sayonara~

i can see the dust collecting in here
it has been quite long since my last post
guess i was quite busy with the things that had to be done
not to mention, i'm feeling damn tired

oh, sept 19 and 20, was celebrating my bro birthday
first was at giraffe bar, opposite plaza sing there
only a handful of us turn up to give him a surprise
boy was he surprised
we sang the birthday song for him while he was coming out
he thought that its was some other person birthday, haha
then we celebrated his birthday at cafe delma on the actual day, 20 sept
it was at sentosa and we had to like travel so far zzzZzz
there was a private jacuzzi there, so i was like having fun playing with water with gladys
but then, some other people sure love to spoil my mood over there
it was sure annoying

everyone is going overseas

just now send my dearest mother to the airport

she is going to france for 2weeks, yeah and i thought i will finally have more freedom

however, boy i was wrong

not even lasted till one day and i started to miss her

most of the time when i was feeling down, she was there for me

haiz.. not even her but my friends are also travelling

yeah, they going have some fun while i am in boring old singapore =(

i always hate going to your blog

cause by doing that, it will only make me feel more guilty

i guess only my brother knows why i felt like that

maybe we could be back together again, but who am i trying to kid

you also know why we shouldn't do that

the more guilty i feel, the more i try my best not to get back together

lest hurting you once more again

i don't believe that i help you

jogging in the rain is really fun (:

omg, its been so long since i jog, i'm so dead now

after a few tiring days out, i finally get a job

waiter? i hope i can do it, waraku at marina
with so many things to remember in the menu
oh gosh, what am i suppose to do
here is something how the restaurant look like

yeps that will be my new life, earn my own stupid money
keeps me distracted from other things

my hip is really hurting
not really sure why, but while walking today, it felt like something came loose
and now it is hurting very badly
whenever i apply the pressure on my right leg, my tears almost flow out of my eyes
ouch ouch

i am dumb, my father tries to communicate with me
even though in a weird way
but what did i do? i just brush him aside and treats his words are like nothing
i guess i am too used to his blabbering and all
i guess that the problem between the both of us
the lack of communication
another thing that i need to seriously work on

i've just read danial's blog
it really makes me start thinking about alot of things
especially the phrase: "If i were to die tonight"
what if that really happens to me
will those that are close to me really grieve over it?
will those that i thought of really remember me
those that i want
have i ever make any impact in anyone life
i really ain't sure about it
ok, i'm not saying that i am going to commit suicide now
but yeah, accidents may happen anytime
many people do not know how to cherish what they have till it is gone
so i guess before that really happens, i should live life to the fullest
make everyday as if it is the last day of my life
make this humble life of mine really worthwhile
how nice to get a smile from everyone everytime you see them
it really does works miracles, certainly brightens up my day!
i guess it's another thing that i also have to work on


many people told me it is impossible
or maybe it is stupid to try to do it
but that was the time when i really felt it
like i was in heaven
the feeling is great, not many people gets the chance to experience
while i threw it away so easily
that's why i am regretting it now

recently, someone ask me "what's your purpose in life"
without a purpose, life is really meaningless
then what is the use of having this life
in this year, i've experience ups and downs situation
and i will go on complaining about it
i finally realised, instead of complaining about it, why not i don't dwell on it
why not i do something better, and make my life have more meaning in it
i have my life in my own hands, one and only
make it a special and fulfilling one

many people had high hopes on me
but why do i keep letting them down
i guess it's time for me to think of my own life
studies and health, no other then that
by pursuing all those short term happiness, i guess that the reason behind my meaningless life
hopefully it's not too late by now
i have one box in my hand now, and i assure myself it is the last one
this is first thing i have to start doing to gain back my own trust
the trust in myself

it begins right now...

The day i died while swimming, but was resurrected, certainly not better then before xD

oh, i was invited over to have a swim, not knowing the danger that was for me:D

i was barely breathing but they insisted me to take a photo

i struggled till i fainted, body floating at the water surface but they were still busy taking photos

i finally drowned completely but those evil people just ignored me.

i heard that there was food upstairs and was immediately resurrected, rejuvenated too.

i was infected by their contagious disease and start to camwhore together.

even though my spirit feels refreshed, my body was getting old.

finally, i was back to my original state, happy and lively =)

friday was a really slacking day for me
suppose to go for a job hunt early in the morning, but ended up that he camped at my place
cause my dearest mummy wants me to work for her
maybe there were other reasons why she wanted me to work with her
after that went over to sheryl's place
we swam in the evening, actually more like playing with water
then after dinner, we were suppose to have a dvd marathon
but i had to rush over to shirley's house first to get the moon cakes. (thanks ^^)
slack with blood-ther (brother) for before returning back
then we started the marathon
i guess the swim took out most of the life in us
we were so tired, and only watch two dvds
'my wife is a gangster 3' and '300' (again) (:
i also enjoyed my time using the massage, hehe
then we went to the pool side and play some cards till around 6
was suppose to have breakfast with them but by then i was already K.O

slept at 7am and woke up at 10am to meet them
sharlene, viven, merlyn and dominic
we went over to dom's place
there was a few games of pool, watching of high school musical 2, rewatching of hsm2 (thanks to someone who came late and insisted to watch. must be zac efron :D) and monopoly
all of you don't have to feel sad, i know that you all lost badly to me in monopoly (:

after that i rushed back home with danial and accompany my bro
we went to bark's cafe with my eldest sis to have a drink
guess i just wanted to drink or else i would be so lazy to take a trip down there (which is super near our house)
poor vanessa anne hudgens, her bright future just vanished at a blink of an eye

finally things are looking a little brighter for me
i must emphasize, just a little
finally we make up with each other, i felt that heavy burden of mine that started out my bad year lighten a little for me

i had just make my life a little harder
i know what i am doing
i really hope nothing bad will turn out from it
sorry, if that happens

i have been repeating this over and over again
what a 'great' year i am having
recently another new batch of problems came up
thanks to my beloved cousin
he finally get caught by his parents
i warned him how many times about this and he just don't want to listen to me
now great, the parents put the entire blame on me
hello?? wake up.. your son is not that angelic anymore
why must be someone who influence your son and not he learnt it by himself
or more likely, i learnt from him

i am just expecting more troubles after what had happened
probably i will be left with nothing then
maybe after that you will be glad to cause this that happen right?
cause time and time i warn you what is going to happen and you just won't listen

why am i blaming others when me myself knew that this thing was going to happen sooner or later, and i actually continue let it happen
never never get too close with your cousin
especially he/she is the only child
you get the blame for anything that happens..

dumb dumb.. yeps that is my new name.