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as i got up from bed this morning
a severe migraine came knocking on the door
to ruin the start of a new day
only one thought that came to my mind
which to go back where i came from
subconsciously my hands just wandered under the pillow
in search of my only source of hope
while my mind received uncountable number of thoughts
so close, yet it's that far
i felt really dead at that moment
totally opposite when i was with you..

till that day.....

i endure all my feelings inside
no matter what, or i wanted to do was to keep everyone happy
but nothing got better, so in the end i finally break down
tears just start rolling down, i was too tired to continue
luckily, there was just that glimmer of support that kept me going
keep me going on with my life
i really do not care about everything already, it's none of my business
so just f*** off and don't bug me ever

enchanted, brilliant show
so sweet and romantic
full of hilarious parts too
really enjoyed the show =)
iwantmytruelovekisstoo(:

yeah, its another day of resting at home
was feeling terrible when i woke up this morning
so i decided to give school a skip
went to see the doctor again
stayed at home the entire day
but i'm feeling much more worse
my throats hurts :(

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

i've fallen sick again
must be the sudden exercises that cause this
fortunately, i did not screw up the psalm
was so tired, came back home and i just dropped dead on the bed
my throat is burning, my nose is leaking
went to jog at night in the cold air
it is already 2am and i'm not feeling tired

left out of everything
saw something hurting to my heart
even though there is nothing much to it
trapped with school and health
my only source of support is no where to be seen
i just have to endure this
i guess i am alone for now...

oh its a day of fun singing and all
(lets not talk about any unhappy things)
went to the church of st francis xavier to have a performance
even though we screw up, we really enjoyed ourselves
then after that went shopping with melvyn, sharlyn, sabrina and grace
came back and play mahjong with grace and melvyn
after that, alan came to join in
won $21 for the first game, and manage to float, winning $2 in the second game

i wasn't there at that moment
oh well, life's like that
i'm sorry

not hearing a single word from you makes me feel really uneasy the whole day
dont mind going an extra mile just to see that smile of yours
but then, hearing everyone sing really give me the creeps
and yeah, including myself
walking on a road, quiet and dark
not emo-ing however, just thinking of the stack of work that is waiting for me
and after that, not being able to do anything, i'm so useless

i guess that sums up my day yesterday (:

finally watched The Game Plan
really awesome show, something that doesn't require much thinking (:
not forgetting the company that i had for the show
really makes my yesterday afternoon wonderful
but back to reality, i'm so dead
the work that must be done

ouch, my head is pounding..

You've taken every tiny good moment you remember
forgotten all the unpleasant ones
and created a gorgeous fantasy for yourself that no real man can live up to

Forgive yourself
forgive her
and put away all your dreams and mementos

yesterday was just so tiring
went to school without sleeping the entire night
so i was practically half dead
at the end i skipped the field trip to NEWater
as i really wanted to go home to sleep
but steven called, and asked me to meet him
i met up with him to haven lunch with him,
after that to wilfred house cuz he needed to charge his phone
and we actually played basketball
im like so so rusty already, not to say having not sleep
after that went home to change before meeting up with steven and travun
but ended up sleeping from 8pm to 10am
i guess i caught back those sleep that i miss =P

there was once someone who told me
"you cant be perfect no matter what you do, or how much effort you put in"
i'm really giving up trying to help so much already, no point, no one listens to me
at the end, it turn out as though i am one of those hypocrites
i really had enough of it..

i'm just lost for words
five words to describe me now
i am breaking down soon

somehow, i have this funny feeling that something bad is going
to happen on the feast of st cecilia day
many people have changed, and i almost did not know it
they have changed into someone so ugly till they become so unrecognisable
every little steps and actions that they do now
i really dont know whether i should believe it or not
where is all of those people that i remembered when i was young
always laughing and having fun
perhaps this maybe their true colour
i am really not sure about it
however till then, goodbye to the people i thought i once knew
and welcomed to the real world


i'm really confused, i really dont know what i want
i yearn for that feeling that i once had to come back again
yeah, i still have those memories that are in my brain now
which i am trying my best to forget about it
that is the only way if i really want to start a new one
yah, but am i that lucky to find one
that could really make me forget about everything
its going on for one year already, and this still goes on
hopefully that there will be an end to it

thnx to the persistent pressure from others, i decided to blog again
nothing much i can say for this past few days
my life only revolves round quite a few things

having to go to school
having choir practices
going out with grace, victoria, sharlyn and sabrina
only having a few hours of sleep
playing my newly installed football manager (:

yep, my life consists only of this few things
tiring cuz of the lack of sleep
but having quite a lot of fun

all saints day was yesterday
yeah had to go to church, but late cuz of school
met up with vivi
cuz she had training before that
then i had to sing the gospel accla immediately when i reach the choir loft
without any warm up all what
certainly it sounded awful
but who cares? (: no one actually rmb that im the one that sing

yah, and now i terribly need some rest
cuz its 7.40am in the morning and i havent sleep yet
and today psychology class starts at 11am
i'm so dead
*faint at the size of my eye bags