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ahbao
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okay,i'm back to blogging about my boring life (:

Wednesday 19/12/2007:
had to wake up early to practice for the penitential for the priests
and was suppose to be there at 8am.
and i woke up at 7.58am, how great
thought grace had already left without me
but instead, she was worse then me
i had to wake her up
so we reach there around 8.30am
sorry to all those who were there early =/
somehow after helping out to sing for that morning
i felt a sense of satisfaction that i really like
to see the smiles of all of them
really brightens my day
couldn sleep in the afternoon even though i was extremely tiredd
so was stoning for practice in the evening and HK cafe after that
then had a long long talk with grace till 5am in the morning
she finally knows the secret, hah!

Thursday 20/12/2007:
even though my day started out at 6pm
it lasted till 3am in the morning
and i really enjoyed myself
however, i am feeling really guilty
because of today, you fell sick the next day =(

Friday 21/12/2007:
went for confession
and i really let out alot of things
anyway, now the whole family knows about it
after that, played mahjong with
grace/sharlyn, daphnie, leonard/leticia
erm.. sorry, won quite a bit
around $12++
and then continue playing mahjong with grace and sharlyn
and won again in the both rounds
i guess my luck is really good today

anyway, later going to meet up with grace and sharlyn
to do some shopping before practice starts
maybe will be going to starbucks
cause they going to repay their debt there :D
after that will be practice from 5pm - 8pm
it's the last practice, but we still sound horrible
i guess the only thing that we can do now is just pray

little thoughts just floating in my head
if it's really meant to get hurt again
then no matter how i try, i won't be able to escape it
or should i fight for myself?
we wait and see...

yeah, have been staying at home for the past few days
wasn't feeling too good due to my cough
and now, i feeling much better already
it's time for me to get back those fun that i miss out
and it certainly beats staying at home
where there is more possibilities of getting into quarrels
no matter what
i will make this christmas an unforgettable one for me
and start the new year with a bang!
as a celebration for the end of year 2007
which has been such a 'memorable' one for me
so for those of you are still emo-ing about your problems
it's time for you to leave those problems aside and continue living happily
(:

previous post was deleted
a little too childish
but those were how i felt

To have someone there for you always
even if you are in the weirdest mood ever
just having that person to really try his/her best
so that the world feels bright once again
not necessary for those words
only the company of that person will change everything else
nothing else really matters though
the sky can just falls and end everything
but to that particular one, him/her is the world

oh the trip to malaysia on christmas may be CANCELLED
i guess that changed so suddenly
should i be happy or sad?
i really don't know for now

yeah this is my world and my life
no one understands

so breathless till i pass here
so helpless when i turned
my throat is wrecked with all these coughing
my mind just cant find any peace
my morning has turn into night
and my night has turn into afternoon
now it is getting worse
with those wandering thoughts that also gone worse
720++ hours have pass by in a blink of an eye
how quick can that be
but this mere 6hours
it just felt like i went through hell

the air-con went whooosh
as the light slowly flickers like stars in the sky
alarm clocks sounded as lazy bones got up from bed
the air of the night was unbearable
at sub-zero temperature it might be

i hate the feeling of waking up now
for school, for work, anything! the feeling just sucks
right after you finished your bath with the minimum amount of warm water
the feeling is a combination of many negative things
just make you feel so alone
so here i am giving you all all the support
for those who are going to experience this now
cause PHILIP ELIJAH NG is finally having his holidays
finally my eyes droop down
as i begin my journey into slumberland
(posted late because i fell asleep :D)

he was left alone
when he was feeling down
he was easily irritated at the moment
probably becuz of that
he wasn't feeling too well
all he wanted was just to have someone's company
but it wasn't being understand at all
was it really worth it feeling down?
i really dunno.
i also can't help you

i just wanna say a big THANK YOU!
for those birthday wishes i received (doesn't matter if its late)
for those pressie that i received
to those who celebrated it with me (especially during that midnight )
really glad to have all that for my birthday
thank you (:

Life revolves round many things
one thing that definitely make an impact is certainly money
yeah with it, many things will be make possible
but could it really bring us happiness?
being able to buy something out of your hard earned money
certainly gives us that sense of satisfaction, a short lived of happiness
but a simple turn of events like having that thing stolen or lost
it really brings much more unhappiness instead
and because of this, your unhappy mood affect many other people
hurting relationships unknowingly
then whats the point of working so hard for it?

watching the movies
taking the long long ride on the enormous vehicle
stopping by to feed my stomach worm
enjoying the night scenery awaiting a surprise
having a long night stroll
oh, how i wish thats my life

i have a demon :D

it has come
i'm finally 17
went to watch the golden compass
something like the lord of the rings
love the ending part (:
i really enjoyed myself last night
and happy with whatever had been done

the two years are looking to be identical
but one turned how horribly for me
but i beg to differ for the other one
because...

just be strong for the ones you love
deep down inside is filled with pain and torture
anytime i will be just there
always ready, like always
this is what i am, to see others happy
to help to whenever is possible
and prefer not to troubled you I am
till now that never be a change

haha watch this (:

was having an interclass soccer yesterday
yeah, finally i could touch the soccer ball again
but then, i still was not at the pink of health
without any practices and all, we managed to get everything
i meant a win, a draw and a loss, haha
i nearly died after the first match
i was panting exactly like coral after she was knocked by a car
i was feeling lightheaded, giddy
i felt like vomitting, and i coughed like crazy
luckily my body managed to withstand the instant amount of exercise
i swear i thought my heart was gonna stop. XD
and now my body is aching like mad
from head to toe,ouch ouch

i had enough of your nonsense
stop thinking that you are still so important to me
i don't really need to follow your lifestyle
and don't you think i need your help in everything
so stop touching my things
don't act as though that you're the best
cause mayb other people feels so
but i don't give a damn about you, so you can jolly well fuc* off

to someone who send me that mail
yar, i know you have your reasons and all
and i agree with it mostly
but somehow or someway
there is some other things that is really affecting my trust
actually i don't wanna go into details about everything
it's quite stupid to do so
just wanna say i hope you are happy with your decision.
and ya, im still here always..