zombie
Thursday, December 11, 2008
12/11/2008 04:13:00 AM
Have you ever live a life as a zombie?
Because right now, it really feels as though life has lost its colour
Everything that i'm doing right now, lack the purpose and determination in doing so
i find there is nothing worth fighting for
sooner or later, i will just end up as a folding table
who will appear only there is food, and hiding in my room all other time
life is short, it is better to live to the fullest
but can you see things from the bright side?
it is harder than you think
many people misunderstand seeing things from the bright side with avoiding the problem
it really takes great skill for that particular someone to accept what he have
and be seriously happy with what he has
most or everyone is born greedy
when we have it, we want more and doesn't cherish what we had
till the day we actually lose it than we would find out its importance
so am i to share this loneliness and thoughts?
you can't be there for me 24/7, so don't say you can
where is that happy go lucky side of me
has it disappear for good?
because all i see right now are black and white
where has all the other colours gone?
i want my rainbow, with aeroplanes flying there for me to catch
life continues...
i should too...
一人晚餐
Thursday, November 27, 2008
11/27/2008 02:17:00 AM
就算一人晚餐一人望海我會習慣
兩人坐家中沒旁人我懂欣賞孤與單
就算深宵失眠寂寞瀰漫有些冰冷
尋到心中所愛
從未多心想再揀＊
就算一人上班一人候車偶爾自嘆
我仍學會假日陪同友好傾通宵買衫
就算相戀艱難日夜緩慢世間很冷
回憶不敢偷懶
留守到尾不見從不散
yawns!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
11/22/2008 10:01:00 AM
just came back from Dom house. Was having a good talk with him for the whole night. Probably drinking session. :)
I gonna have to do this all alone.
I gonna do it for myself.
I gonna go on and try another time.
I gonna go my own way.
/edit
just woke up and ate my dinner
i'm feeling a little ewww.......
surprising because i thought i did not drink much
anyway, not that i dont care about myself but really thats the only way i could find that little bit of happiness that has been missing in my life.
now, i have woken up, back into reality again, and it sure sucks.
i still got lots of things to share, but to whom?
everyone seems different, everyone is a stranger
SOMETIMES...
We must be hurt in order to grow,
We must fail in order to know,
We must lose in order to gain,
Some Lessons are learned best only through pain.
SOMETIMES...
Our vision clears only after our eyes are washed with tears,
We have to be broken so we can be tender,
We are sick so we can rest and think better on things more important than work or fun
We are taken for trip near death so we can assess how we've run.
But then.....
If there is.....
Will he......
the difficulty
Thursday, November 20, 2008
11/20/2008 05:33:00 PM
ok haven't been feeling so good recently. Haven't really felt happiness since that day came. But then, now I feel really terrible. Not only I'm quitting this, and I'm quitting this all by myself. It is really very tough doing so. It has been like a habit, for like 1year 8months? I definitely can do this, but temptations have been flying all around me. It's difficult, but I try.
But how long can I last? I really don't know. Actually Im not going to stop for good. I just wanna prove to everyone, including myself, that I am able to do anything I want. And I mean it. By then when my birthday comes, it will be around two weeks, I think this should be long enough to prove everyone wrong.
Went out with Sheryl for dinner ytd. Had those normal chats with her, at least it could take my mind off things. Gonna meet my Godpa later. Another few hours to occupy myself with. See ya.
The revival of a blog
Friday, November 14, 2008
11/14/2008 05:03:00 AM
I've been gone for months and finally return to blogging about my life. I just lose someone that is so important in my life and can find no one that i can just rant out my trouble. Anyway, no comments needed for my blog post.
Just completed my EIR work at 5.06am in the morning of a friday / 14-11-08 and i find myself really lost and alone. These few days have really strike me hard and I really thought that i was going to lose my mind. I guess all that smoking and drinking really clouded my senses and i got to stop it right now. My birthday is coming soon and i really think that there will not be any celebration.
It is really ironic, i waited so long for this day and really dreamt about what's going to happen. It just have to stop one day before. I really regretted not cherishing what i have and taking it for granted. My mouth could only go yada yada and i just find myself sitting down doing nothing. I really hate myself for what i become, seriously.
All i want for my birthday is just that one person, the one i regretted losing.
/edit
i regretted going to school today, it really was a waste of time. Anyway, it did what it suppose to do, kept me occupied for awhile. I lost to GOD.. haha you really win. i knelt down one hour in search for an answer.
Notice
Monday, July 7, 2008
7/07/2008 03:10:00 AM
hey everyone, this blog will be temporary gone for the time being
(:
day without her - 72
Monday, June 23, 2008
6/23/2008 07:50:00 PM
first day of school reopening was tiring
somehow or someway, i just feel so drained out.
anyway, sorry guys
off to do maya work.
