Friday, February 22, 2008
2/22/2008 12:50:00 AM
This whole week has been a boring week for me
it's the study week and all that i study is.... mahjong
anyway, receive a stupid phone call from my teacher saying that
she couldn't find my ides cd and sketchbook.
and she told me that i will definitely fail without this items.
WTF right. i have already pass up the fucking damn work and you tell me that
and i told you i could bring it down and hand it again.
"oh, you already pass the deadline, so i can't collect any work anymore."
eh wtf, not say i did not hand it right? i really think that it is you that lost my work
and i'm going to fail because of that?
fuck it, just fail it.. i really don't care
i've already hate my life anyway
if i were to collaspe one day
will you be there for me?
i am so depressed now
can you even... haiz nvm
it has already been like that
the irony of certain things
when you take a look at them
you can't help but just laugh
even though it's not even funny
why are some things happening in this way
there will be no answer for these questions
'what is your purpose of actually being here in this world'
never will i be able to answer this question
but until now, not one, and i really mean not even one
really understand how i feel
after so long, having the number of people around me
probably that sense of having friends
but who actually can always be there for you?
not always your friends, they have their life
your family? my father?
that will probably be when it's the end of the world
my mother? somehow, maybe only her but then not always
siblings? every single one have their own matters
and the last one, i thought that this could be answer
but she probably have more things to worry about then me
i still feel so distant to her, like there so much about her
when she is still hiding some emotion from me,
that line, i will never ever get past it.
so i just sum up everything
in conclusion, none..
the questions that i asked
i really want an answer
