episode 7
Sunday, January 13, 2008
1/13/2008 08:37:00 AM
on the chair under the twinkling little stars
had already a few cups of whisky to forget about everything
in my hand was another cup of martini
if only i could be like the rest
and reach that zone where everything seems to fly
maybe all the troubles would just disappear for awhile
i am hopeless
hopeless as being a person
nothing work out yesterday
so much for being a day i look forward for a long time
the wait felt like a 100years
all i wanted. i thought about was just to help
help you take your mind off the things that trouble you
was that so difficult?
you did much for me, i thought maybe i could do something to please you
the plan backfired and became something really ugly
why everything that i planned
with a good heart and mind
turns out like it is nothing
after what i planned last time before that fateful day
i received a big present, something which affected my life greatly
something which changed me
into someone i am now
i'm just so scared of that to happen again
but i just wanted you to smile
and leave behind everything
if that really hurt you, i will never do it again
why not i just be on a stand-by
anytime you want, just call me
call me when you're not that tired
seriously i find myself trying so hard in everything
but i guess i'm not being smart
all that i working towards were totally wrong
i'm really tired
tired of trying to make you see things from my point
if you want to forget about it
then so be it
so you won't get hurt
i prefer to be the only one getting hurt then both of us
