Day without you - 3
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
4/15/2008 08:52:00 AM
just came back from my poly class chalet
and just got some catching up with them before the start of school
my main intention was to get there and get really drunk
but it turn out that i was the one that taking care of the drunk
slowly one by one seeing each other them getting drunk faster then me
it really feels so ...... , i cant describe this feeling
in the end, i just had to inhale more 'air'
which eventually made my throat really sore now
i think i'm going to get throa
t infection sooner or later.
but seeing one of them drunk, feeling so sad about some problems
it really hurts me to see that
yeah, i'm perfectly fine being seen around anyone
but once it comes when i had to face four walls alone
the feeling is unbearable
and i still don't understand why such a thing must be done
maybe that is why you say our opinions differ
but seriously, the way you think really is different and unique.
it really left me lost and in agony...
i got a reallybad sore throat, burning
just woke up, probably the worst i always feel
i really hate sleeping, because i just cant run away from all this
i still had to accept reality which i really can't do it.
i think you are gotten used to me not in your life anymore
i guess i'm quite the forgotten right now
all i did was did my best for the relationship
and now you tell me you could not commit
i did not ask for 100% full attention from you
what you did at easter vigil was really good enough for me
was it really that you are tired of having problems
or tired of this relationship?
because whatever you said to me doesn't make sense
you treat me like what?
someone as and when you can start loving as you please
and as and when you really cannot handle it, you just dump
you are not being good for not dragging this
don't think that it actually helped me
i already took a ultimate long time having to forget my first one
all your promises, were they stimulating me to kill myself
aren't you happy that i'm like that for you
instead of filling guilty, i just you are enjoying yourself
i'm very tired, very tired of getting this treatmenti.
i'm very tired of those promise you actually made
remember you told me once that my promises actually meant alot to you?
you think is not vice versa?
tired tired tired
